Jealous

jeal⋅ous

–adjective
1. feeling resentment against someone because of that person's rivalry, success, or advantages (often fol. by of): He was jealous of his rich brother.
2. feeling resentment because of another's success, advantage, etc. (often fol. by of): He was jealous of his brother's wealth.
3. characterized by or proceeding from suspicious fears or envious resentment: a jealous rage; jealous intrigues.
4. inclined to or troubled by suspicions or fears of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims: a jealous husband.

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Then when I suddenly went into a totally randomized mood.
My weekends was super pack with NR and NSL and to study for NS 1 and NS2.
When I suddenly had a super random idea and asked Datin Mahathair to go for a swim.
It was super last minute. And she agreed.
And we swam for like errr 60 minutes or less?
Haha. And had dinner.
And off to watch the stupidest show ever. 2012~
And we cabbed home.

For the fact that I know NR is going to due soon, I still have yet to do a single thing about it.
For the fact that I know Phase test is next week, and I still don't give a damn about it.
For the fact that I know, there are many medications to be memorised, but I don't care.
For the fact that I know, I'm going to be tested for the oral meds tomorrow, and I'm still here now.
For the fact that I know if I don't start studying now, I'm going to suffer from the last minute syndrome and I still don't care.
For the fact that I know if I don't stop eating, I'll just explode.
For the fact that I know, I'm super petty and should just forget about it.

petty   1 : having secondary rank or importance : minor, subordinate 2 : having little or no importance or significance 3 : marked by or reflective of narrow interests and sympathies : small-minded

For the fact that I know, Mahathair gonna meet my one true love tomorrow.
For the fact that I know, thinking about my one true love that Mahathair is meeting, makes me excitable.
For the fact that I know, I am living in denial.
For the fact that I know, whatever I try doing, I still hate you just as much.
For the fact that I know if I don't sleep now, I'm going to wake up late which results in me being late for school.

School has started.
And so has projects and group works.
So far so good.
No stress or anything yet. :)

Last Sunday, despite what I said, I still went.
All were fouls. :(
I feel super useless for a moment,
I can't even throw a stupid stick.
Like how damn fucking tooot stupid and dumb and weak can I get?

Last Saturday was super disheartening. :(
Thank god, they are willing to go out with me. :)
I think it kinda caused me to be emo the whole week.
And not forgetting what happened last Friday?
Which was super unexpected. :(

Oh! And my camera spoil. :(

Finally, it's good to be home.
Home sweet home. :)

I need to wash my hands, it's kinda dusty.

This week has been rather pathetic.
All the plans mostly flopped.

It starts out with Tuesday.
And then Wednesday.

Monday was great.
Cycling at Ubin.
Althought pathetically only 10 of us, excluding 3,
I guess it's still considered as one. :)

Wednesday was super frustrating.
I'm not going tomorrow.
And it's final.
Dinner was fun.
:)

Thursday was great with movie marathon.
And ---------------- after that.
SECRET! :)

Friday was helping out at cik ya's. :)
And the food.
NICE. :)

And today, never been better. ",

And I guess I am the only one looking forward to school.
Coz if it's really what I want,
Then I shall strive for the better now.
Right?

Now, I guess the time has come for me to decide what I really want.
With so many things going on and what nots,
I just don't know what to do anymore.
Last night fight was terrible.
And I wish you were right here with me. :(

OH! HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU INTERNET! :D
With the connection being down, ( I don't stay in the jungle),
getting to use the internet is like getting a golden egg from the chicken!

I'm back from my trip.
With lots of things in mind.
And many things to be done.

The trip was great.
The laughter, talks, candids.
OH!
And the crazy things we did. :D <3
Those teasings and what not.
Not forgetting buying alot of things also.
OMG.
Don't even imagine.
Pictures are up on FB and PJ's LJ.
<3 Thanks for the trip. :)

I've cut-ed my hair.
:) :D

Jalan Raya with Attachment people were great. :)
And talking to people who are not even in my best interest,
or neither have I dreamt about talking to, was there.
Right in my face.
TSK!

Clare reply my msn or my sms!
Are you going tomorrow?
I am contemplating to go for mine next week though. :(

Some things which I found out should never have been out.
Why do I have to know the truth?
WHY?!

I MISSED SHIELA AND ELY! :(

I was super irritated today.
Maybe it's PMS?
I was irritated at stupid things and people who are innocent.
At some point of time, I felt like turning around and scream into their face.
But I hold it back.
For good reason I believe.
Hehs.

Raya was tiring.
Heels are such a killer.
Investments are yet to be counted.
I love going for rayeeeee. :D
<3

I can't wait for attachment to end.
I hate that stupid girl.
She possess such a fucking attitude attention lazy grabber girl.
In short a kid who's deprive of childhood and sttention.
GET A LIFE SUCKER! :)